Sunday, August 21, 2016

old partner

horse riding is so glorious!
 my horse partners' have always
reminded me of my responsibility
to share my plan for
the ride at that moment.
Horses need a plan!

 no saddle horn on this English saddle so
my intention to the horse is
to enjoy and stretch and glide
and just ride, does not have to be fast
i do love a good trott always though!

i just really enjoyed my afternoon with my old friend
Rocky. We sure have helped each other with some grieving for our loved one, Graham, over the years, together.
I make a point of riding this horse so I can
get back to that intention and partnership and the
history behind our rides

"The wind of heaven is that which blows between a horse's ears"

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

joy with grief

  sharing my grief just a wee tiny bit here
may not make sense
but I discovered this from
an inspiring woman I follow
she is so sacred and dramatic
her name is Danielle Laporte

here I was, my son was gone...
"I'm aching over this loss, so can this aching gratitude in my core be real? Am I betraying my memories? Am I denying my pain?"

Not at all. You're expanding. says Danielle Laporte

whoa!  this is a definition of how I felt when I was grieving after my son Graham passed on.

It did not  fail that when I went  through the early beginnings of the most heart-breaking passages of my life — losing a son and all dreams dashed — the pain brought me to the floor of my being, and what was there to be found?

The simple joy of being alive. So cosmically basic it's mind-blowing: the joy to be here, connected, animated, breathing, blessed, resilient, to be broken, to be open, to have what was, what's left, what's coming. The joy just to be part of reality.

joy is an inner vibration that is always achingly in the background waiting
for you

an inspiring sculpture speaks to me about my grief

let me explain
the horse is powerful and strong (personal inner power)
the rider is fearless and will face the unknown as he
moves with his personal inner strength

grief is deep
grief is empowering

Sunday, August 14, 2016

fitter is better

 I started the 21 day fix with
end of May this year
I am busy doing my 30 minute workouts every day since
and I did not realize the fitness level I am at now

I rode Rocky this afternoon
it was hot and bugs weren't too bad
when I stepped into the stirrup to swing up
and over I couldn't believe how simple that
was.  No left sciatic to numb my foot and
more strength and speed in getting
this is why I work out!
one of the reasons that is for sure!

this horse is a good ole boy but he is pretty soft, not in riding shape for a 20 year old
horse and I need to get him out more. 

so this afternoon was hotter than I thought
and Rocky was really sweating after 1/2 hour and I only
trotted him around the arena for 20 minutes
I had to get off him to longe him a little bit more
as the team work was not there between him and I, yet.

anyhow when I did that
he was lathered up around the breast collar
and his neck was wet

It was time to quit
maybe go again tonite?

I was overheated too once
I got into the tack room
to put away his bridle/reins
I needed a sit down on the deck!
(face flushed/feeling weak)

I am getting back in the game in the fall here when weather is cooler and
horse flies stop biting, then it's good horse riding!  In the meantime short rides
in our yard will be perfect this month.

Saturday, August 13, 2016

impromptu gathering

 my siblings and all spouses and my parents are here (and my niece Brenda)
Aug 13, 2016
Smitty's at Golden Mile in Regina

Thursday, August 11, 2016

So Simple

I finished picking shelling and furiously eating each pea from our garden today and realized this was a childhood joy.   Going to the garden and  quickly yanking the vines to grab the fat bulging pods, ripping open each one and devouring the peas placed perfectly side by side in the shell.  Its better than Christmas.  Its crazy to still behave that way now in my retiring days at 60.   I think i am immature and childlike when i do that.   It is also a burst of the good life moment.

going to the pea patch and swimming in the local lakes this summer; as a child i remember
the feelings of doing something,
the feelings i get when in action,
an action that is so simple...
so simply soulful.

Our garden is plentiful.
We have potatoes, carrots, peas, tomatos and corn.
The corn is doing well but we are wary of the racoons
that will surely show up and eat all the niblets just when
the cobs are ready for eating.
An electric fence or even a radio by the garden on a timer
works too (we have been told).

How is your garden this year?
I am pretty proud we have one.
The soil is great here for growing.

What moments do you remember and still relish from those
innocent times way back when?

Monday, August 08, 2016

2nd chance

here is the 2 year old Little Brown/Tuko/2nd Chance
he has had 3 names because when he arrived at our acreage i called him
Little Brown
his name is actually Tuko
now I call him '2nd Chance' because.....he is not learning or responsive
and seems dull and this is concerning to see that in a young horse.  Mantracker had taken
him to a professional training clinic in June for 4 days.  The consensus there was the same, the horse does not want to move or react, like he has an attitude of  which is a bit scary?
So Mantracker has had to dig deeper with a new plan
in his training for this one.

There is always a horse or two that will not learn like some of the others
and the trainer must adapt to a new method.

today his head is up and ears forward and he gets to run around the arena with
all the saddle gear on him by himself and he has to learn to accept the bit with the reins most importantly.   He seems fine with
the saddle.

go 2nd Chance!  you can learn this stuff!

anyways always interesting because Mantracker says it would be boring
if he didn't have a challenge "I would not learn and I would become dull too!"


Tuesday, August 02, 2016

natures' naturals

 enjoying the carefree naturals this summer

I am blessing you with the opportunity to be more
carefree this summer!  give it a try as we can learn
from nature, but we must practice its lessons!