let's go back to a couple of days ago shall we?...

Hey, remember my Crashing post on Tuesday.  the last line I said was "Today though, I had to overhear a conversation that left me feeling extremely exposed and hurt." and then my post abruptly ended? Well even if you haven't read that post I need to explain what happened and what I did.  It was one of those common but not very common conversations that took place close to where I was sitting.  I knew these 2 individuals well and they knew me and my tragic situation with Graham (that ugly word "suicide" came out about Marie Osmond's son - it stabbed me deeply and I froze).  I was in shock just because of my relationship with these 2 individuals who know me well and my life circumstance.  I wanted to phone in sick for the afternoon and go home and cry and feel the pain and feel hurt and just be really angry.  Anger came to me quickly and I left for lunch and didn't know how to spend my time I couldn't go home I live too far out of town for a lunch break.  I struggled through the afternnoon and when I picked up my husband I vented about it with him.  He was very wise about it all and said something profound "Donna we are never going to be able to hide from being hurt at times.  People are human (unfortunately) and they don't think."  .......so....... that has stuck with me ....I have put that out on this blog for me to get rid of it and left it hanging on Tuesdayr knowing I would need to talk about it here on my "spirit/therapy blog".  I did not connect with the individual that started that conversation until today.  I am a "passive/aggressive personality" and would never think to say anything at the time of this event.  I take it in and then fume over it and before I would just let it hide inside me and inappropriately get angry with something else instead.  So I need to write this to an audience.....because I know their are others out their that have had this experience.  I know I have put my foot in the mouth at times and feel bad because you can never take back the words, you can try...I am learning that tragedy in people's lives is an interesting topic...when it hasn't happened to you.  If you have read this whole post then maybe you can relate to this same type of situation.  Good on ya when you can let it go ...

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